Jen just jen
full :: transparency
2017
- December 2017
- 21 - This is what 20 looks like
- 22 - Same as yesterday
- 23 - Pull yourself up by your ..
- 24 - Brain dump
- 26 - Christmas
- 29 - Expectations V. Reality
- 31 - ah butts.
- 31 - Proud to be an American
2018
- January 2018
- 02 - same shit different day
- 05 - Yours truly
- 07 - exhausted
- 09 - I think I might be in love ..
- 10 - the trouble with anger
- 11 - musiccccccc
- 11 - Managing the Panic Knob
- 14 - So tired
- 16 - I return
- 17 - Choosing unhappiness
- 20 - depressed by design.
- 21 - Undetonating the trigger
- 24 - Victim of being a victim
- February 2018
- 03 - weak & pathetic?
- 03 - I suppose i get real
- 05 - Preparation for tomorrow
- 06 - oy captin me captin
- 06 - So remember when?
- 10 - welp
- 10 - tribalism
- 11 - deus ex machina?
- 12 - hello again!
- 14 - Moving on like green day ..
- 16 - crying in the rain
- 17 - thanks but no thanks?
- 17 - metaphors for anxiety
- 18 - checkup & short apology for ..
- 19 - Composition of thought
- 20 - "I can't"
- 21 - Cognitive Behavioral Therapy
- 22 - insert thoughtful title
- 23 - Thanks, brain
- 24 - super health freak
- 24 - why I dropped out
- 25 - I had a thought.
- 26 - Is avoiding a type of being?
- 26 - Pro self flagellation
- 26 - Dysfunctional
- 27 - Acceptance leads to ..
- March 2018
- 01 - what is depression even heck
- 01 - Purpose & direction
- 02 - Tonight I am not ok
- 04 - 2 am and I'm still awake ..
- 05 - Sadness is an art form
- 06 - Conversations about courage
- 07 - Clinical & cynical
- 08 - Caring for oneself
- 08 - Does ugliness also come ..
- 09 - Red, Dufresne & Hope
- 10 - New day same game
- 11 - not ok
- 12 - More pissed, more action
- 13 - the joy of painting
- 14 - I'm tired
- 15 - feeling ill
- 18 - Discipline
- 19 - numb
- 20 - Bullshit
- 20 - I've abandoned myself
- 21 - Cosmic cowboy
- 22 - gossip is strange
- 23 - there's something fiction ..
- 24 - A hard day's night
- 25 - Small nighttime rant
- 28 - saddle up
- 29 - an elastic heart
- 29 - Taking myself seriously
- 30 - Here's what I'm upset ..
- 30 - before work chat
- 31 - not in the mood
- April 2018
- 01 - only just
- 02 - d I s o r I e n t e d always
- 04 - back again
- 04 - forget it bish
- 05 - worldview mining
- 06 - Reduced opacity
- 07 - Today's been a nice ..
- 09 - some questions do get ..
- 10 - Meditation on forgiveness
- 10 - Counseling session discuss
- 10 - okay last entry
- 11 - Surrendering
- 12 - all Is new
- 13 - Vienna waits for you.
- 13 - late night observation
- 13 - another observation b/c I ..
- 14 - Th spaces in between
- 14 - Priorities meet grief
- 15 - lonely
- 16 - Life is suffering
- 16 - subconscious revenge battles
- 17 - Seven Pounds
- 18 - Hello thur
- 19 - Nighttime sleepy-sad
- 20 - Let it go.
- 22 - fuck. me.
- 23 - Paying attention to the ..
- 24 - What I meant to say was
- 26 - Headed 4 hell
- 27 - maintaining a perspective
- 28 - So so tired
- 28 - S0 yea
- 29 - Right now I'm in a really ..
- 30 - Just got back
- May 2018
- 01 - 10 hr shift
- 02 - for community
- 03 - Feeling like you're worth it
- 04 - Head voice
- 06 - beyond tired here guys but ..
- 08 - So I suppose the moment ..
- 09 - Loneliness is an epidemic
- 09 - Playing with visions
- 10 - It's a personal policy
- 10 - So it begins
- 12 - Fml
- 13 - endorphins
- 14 - bitch
- 15 - crying is good
- 18 - Spending time with god
- 19 - self worth
- 20 - So I'm suicidal now?
- 20 - addendum
- 24 - Where my mind is lost
- 25 - a talk about love or ..
- 26 - bad moods r 4 novices
- 28 - eyyy
- 28 - personal homework notes
- 29 - speaking of fish in the ..
- 30 - a different kind of suicide
- June 2018
- 01 - Meditation probably
- 01 - feeling loved and ..
- 02 - standing for something or ..
- 03 - How many fish there b?
- 03 - fatigue & stressin out
- 06 - in which I got myself ..
- 06 - 21
- 08 - The opposite of cynicism
- 08 - I'm having trouble
- 09 - Performing
- 09 - Nostalgia for honesty
- 11 - so he tries to pacify her
- 14 - Considering job ..
- 15 - still processing
- 16 - A life not shared is a life ..
- 18 - Opening up to life
- 22 - How to be less lonely?
- 22 - Most days now I'm feel I'm ..
- 23 - landslide
- 28 - discipline
- 29 - it's been awhile
- July 2018
- 06 - a child still
- 06 - haunted by Her
- 07 - comparison
- 13 - things becoming clear
- 14 - relying on others
- 16 - working hard doesn't make ..
- 17 - perspective
- 18 - intrinsic value
- 20 - depending on urself
- 21 - goddamn that man.
- 22 - fuck him
- 24 - this kid
- 24 - valuing my time
- 24 - afraid to grow
- 25 - s o keeping your heart open
- August 2018
- 10 - showing up
- 15 - August
- 16 - Things I've been avoiding ..
- 17 - I've got many things to say
- 17 - I get self destructive
- 18 - It's tiring
- 18 - a fleeting image
- 19 - The thing is we both take ..
- 26 - I want to be with him
- 29 - I suppose I start now. With ..
- September 2018
- 01 - today
- 03 - Massively tired
- 08 - a different kind of living
- 08 - I wish that last entry did ..
- 17 - fun is a serious thing.
- 17 - Not in my backyard
- 19 - When does it get easy to ..
- 19 - In which I evaluate why it ..
- 21 - I got my tattoo.
- 22 - I'm hurting
- 23 - The end of summer.
- 24 - My moon eyes
- 25 - I'm afraid to write
- 25 - more things to address
- 28 - finding your voice is hard.
- 28 - content
- 29 - Silence is complicity
- 30 - I love these talks I'm ..
- October 2018
- 01 - seriously.
- 06 - A maggoty feeling
- 07 - hurting
- 07 - Other observations
- 12 - Longread
- 17 - How to care for yourself:
- 18 - feeling 5 yrs old
- 19 - a mild dose of poetry
- 20 - I"m really sad. I ..
- 25 - I think I'm depressed
- 27 - I won't complain
- 28 - 16 hrs.
- November 2018
- 04 - putting first things first
- 07 - empowering punch!
- 10 - feeling particularly..
- 10 - it occurs to me
- 10 - I'm most disturbed by the ..
- 17 - I have trouble choosing ..
- 21 - accountability
- 22 - from an outside perspective
- 30 - what do you know when you ..
- December 2018
- 14 - perfecting the to do list ..
- 15 - I like what I have to think
- 15 - more rambling
- 17 - Sunday Scaries
- 18 - feeling okay
- 19 - that summer boy story. from ..
- 20 - with practice
- 21 - baking cookies
- 21 - What I'm slowly realizing ..
- 23 - always got angeries
- 25 - I want to write about how ..
- 26 - Mary Poppins
- 29 - Future possibilities
- 29 - ugh feelings
- 30 - chutes & ladders ya'll
- 31 - angry with myself.
- 31 - more figuring
2019
- January 2019
- 01 - its 3 am
- 01 - it's paining me.
- 02 - fun and goal setting
- 02 - another thing
- 03 - I've come to a conclusion
- 06 - chewing gum & pontificating ..
- 07 - reputation
- 07 - hehe I'm back
- 08 - goal setting
- 08 - Patience
- 09 - scheduling matters
- 09 - finding the right way.
- 09 - empathy
- 09 - I feel like a piece of ..
- 09 - truth is, my parents ..
- 10 - college. fr.
- 13 - heyyyyy
- 14 - just venting
- 14 - undoing the curse..
- 15 - Subconscious & the things ..
- 16 - what matters[?]
- 16 - rediscovering magic
- 17 - Lately it's like I'm ..
- 20 - boundaries, self-value, and ..
- 21 - bravery is
- 22 - trash
- 22 - how's the water
- 22 - redemption in college?
- 23 - forgiving is moving
- 24 - not sure what to do.
- 25 - vertigo
- 25 - sleepless
- 26 - back again
- 27 - sorry, bun.
- 27 - How I know my life is a joke
- 28 - I've been spending a lot ..
- 29 - A chip on the shoulder
- 30 - identity
- 31 - a nice chat
- 31 - moving on
- February 2019
- 01 - last night I had a lot of ..
- 02 - on my own shit
- 03 - painting bender
- 04 - real life is jazz
- 04 - emotional needs?
- 05 - The Bachelor is trash
- 05 - Just an afternoon, and some ..
- 07 - More past analyses
- 07 - On mental health awareness
- 07 - Reconsidering my feminism ..
- 08 - a light reflection
- 10 - Making room for others
- 11 - trying for hope is a fickle ..
- 12 - enneagram 5
- 14 - making friends with fears
- 14 - being in my head about this ..
- 15 - so.
- 15 - energy concern and growing
- 18 - cryptic poem addressing ..
- 19 - Day 3 of ..
- 19 - long term- where's this ..
- 20 - accountable deniability
- 21 - self authoring
- 22 - back at it,
- 23 - self worth & things
- 25 - lost in my own feelings
- 26 - taking steps forward is ..
- 28 - things becoming clear
- 28 - depression.
- March 2019
- 02 - a date night
- 03 - the scoop
- 04 - so obviously..
- 04 - still tipsy rant
- 05 - manipulation
- 05 - attention
- 06 - gratitude
- 06 - perspective, anxiety
- 07 - still so insecure
- 07 - who am I even
- 08 - communicating is hard
- 09 - enneagram 4
- 09 - for some reason I'm ..
- 10 - perspective.. growing
- 12 - I'm feeling little freer ..
- 13 - scapegoats of ..
- 14 - y do life gotta get real ..
- 15 - lets chat about work fr
- 16 - I probably should've ..
- 17 - future pains
- 18 - my body feels heavy with ..
- 19 - observe untold resentment ..
- 21 - well
- 21 - more thoughts to get dowon
- 22 - Procrastinating these ..
- 23 - "I'm such an asshole"
- 24 - nothing really matters
- 25 - less lonley
- 27 - not okay today
- 28 - got that tattoo today
- 28 - freud
- 29 - feeling off
- 30 - Just like last night, I ..
- 31 - I'm really liking this ..
- April 2019
- 01 - permission to make mistakes
- 01 - I've been feeling kinda ..
- 02 - processing things
- 02 - I should probably actually ..
- 04 - I feel so emotionally ..
- 04 - gratitude overflowing
- 05 - I have nothing I'd like to ..
- 06 - boy. I can't believe ..
- 07 - tonight I feel like this ..
- 08 - it appears I've been ..
- 09 - where is your heart
- 10 - my heart hurts tonight. ..
- 10 - I want to redact the ..
- 11 - I feel really awake but ..
- 12 - I suppose I should start ..
- 12 - dude. this morning I woke ..
- 14 - it's getting harder to ..
- 19 - I feel like I really don't ..
- 20 - what's wrong with her
- 21 - I can feel my heart closing ..
- 23 - so I went on a date today. ..
- 26 - cold case
- 28 - I'm kind of scared. okay a ..
- 29 - tonight I'm mad at myself. ..
- 29 - an inquiry into boundaries
- May 2019
- 01 - tonight is good
- 02 - so. Things are descending ..
- 03 - blackbelt in denial
- 05 - for myself, by myself
- 07 - ugh
- 08 - confusing relationships 101
- 09 - voice(s)
- 11 - where am I though
- 12 - and finally there was rest
- 15 - a question of emotional ..
- 17 - feeling preoccupied
- 18 - patha-fuckin-logical
- 19 - writing from the burnout ..
- 20 - possibly no words
- 21 - consoling faith from the ..
- 23 - really don't feel like ..
- 24 - consistency I guess
- 26 - nervous
- 26 - exhaustion follows me ..
- 28 - loving myself
- 28 - intention
- 30 - as I'm trying to turn a ..
- June 2019
- 01 - comparison
- 02 - scary
- 04 - it's the day after ..
- 06 - me.
- 07 - I'm at a coffee shop ..
- 13 - today it's dunkin
- 18 - So last night I spent some ..
- 22 - I sound like I'm saying ..
- 23 - another coffee day
- 25 - So I'm at the coffee shop ..
- 28 - I've got a headache. I ..
- July 2019
- 03 - I'm having trouble with ..
- 07 - not really sure what to do ..
- 09 - inconsolable?
- 10 - here I am, again. Slightly ..
- 10 - here I am, again. Slightly ..
- 10 - Transparency
- 12 - I changed the diary name. ..
- 13 - I did a lot today. There ..
- 15 - typhoon
- 15 - deconstructing exhaustion
- 16 - it's daytime again and ..
- 16 - more observations about me ..
- 17 - a good day
- 19 - troubled
- 19 - ery day I'm struggling
- 20 - lost that executive ..
- 20 - update
- 21 - another update
- 22 - boyfriend
- 22 - full disclosure I feel ..
- 23 - not really sure how to ..
- 24 - well I fucked up
- 25 - "the biggest mistake ..
- 27 - I got plan b today. So no ..
- 27 - here's a question
- 28 - I work early again ..
- 29 - so its like I don't know ..
- 29 - I wish I had something to ..
- 31 - altering ? perception
- 31 - i have this addiction to ..
- August 2019
- 01 - Probably safe to say I've ..
- 03 - tonight''s been quite ..
- 04 - Some feelings ran through ..
- 05 - I've figured it out. why I ..
- 06 - I have a lot to write ..
- 06 - the move is encroaching.
- 07 - It's coming to a place ..
- 07 - I'm feeling rather ..
- 08 - affirmations steady me
- 09 - tonight my heart feels like ..
- 10 - today tears feel ..
- 23 - been a minute
- 24 - it's getting harder for me ..
- 26 - it has been conditioned ..
- 27 - It's been a tough day. A ..
- 28 - I'm feeling frustrated and ..
- 30 - It's not always easy for ..
- 31 - So it's been a coupla ..
- September 2019
- 03 - I'm having a great deal of ..
- 04 - I feel deflated from being ..
- 04 - just a rundown of feelings
- 04 - now I'm back because ..
- 05 - how do you love yourself?
- 07 - how I long to be
- 07 - addendum
- 08 - I guess I'm pms'ing ..
- 08 - here is a ..
- 08 - I want someone to know ..
- 08 - there she goes again
- 08 - *I feel*
- 09 - I feel easily overwhelmed ..
- 10 - I think when you're a ..
- 11 - I feel ashamed of the thing ..
- 11 - lately I've been having a ..
- 13 - I'm running on empty here. ..
- 14 - so I guess self-love feels ..
- 15 - huh. you ever feel like you ..
- 15 - *small issue as stand in ..
- 16 - I matter
- 17 - it's one of those nights I ..
- 18 - today has been a hard day. ..
- 18 - confusing, as life is
- 20 - withdrawn
- 21 - it's funny how I feel so ..
- 21 - focus
- 22 - today's been a wonderful ..
- 23 - ug
- 24 - it's late and my body ..
- 25 - all I can say is every day ..
- 26 - today was the first day I ..
- 27 - huh
- 29 - I've got a lot of ..
- 29 - it's one of those mornings ..
- October 2019
- 01 - "There are 2 kinds of ..
- 02 - I've just been feeling so ..
- 03 - I've been taking some time ..
- 03 - and now I'm thinking about ..
- 04 - I don't know how to write ..
- 06 - you ever feel at a loss for ..
- 07 - the child in me is acting ..
- 08 - I don't feel like writing ..
- 09 - so what. -is my ..
- 09 - all the things currently ..
- 11 - feeling alright
- 12 - sometimes I resent this ..
- 13 - I;m having a lot of trouble ..
- 14 - well
- 15 - it's getting hard. And ..
- 16 - So like is it bad I'm ..
- 16 - ugh there's still so much ..
- 17 - it's strange to find the ..
- 18 - not really in the mood to ..
- 19 - I'm miserable
- 20 - new day, same feeling
- 21 - I was thinking of taking a ..
- 22 - I've been avoiding writing ..
- 23 - I just remembered to sign ..
- 24 - I've been feeling down ..
- 25 - I'm wrecked
- 26 - why am I like so like this
- 27 - Some nights I get so tired ..
- 28 - So ughI'm rather ..
- 28 - it's 5 am and I would like ..
- 29 - I keep distracting myself ..
- 30 - I'm feeling lonely today I ..
- 31 - so I guess this is where I ..
- November 2019
- 01 - ugh. That man who was our ..
- 02 - I'm in a bad mood this ..
- 02 - here's a draft of a ..
- 03 - Gosh well. ..
- 05 - If my mother is a ..
- 05 - Yeah, I guess you could say ..
- 07 - I should probably read ..
- 08 - what to do about me
- 09 - Tonight I'm grateful for ..
- 11 - Last night I didn't write ..
- 11 - I guess this pattern of ..
- 12 - it's been a whirlwind of a ..
- 13 - I've given myself a ..
- 13 - Maybe I can tell the same ..
- 14 - I shouldn't be writing ..
- 15 - being back at my apartment ..
- 16 - the end of the fucking world
- 17 - I was sitting on that ..
- 17 - I should probably read ..
- 19 - what a day. I spent last ..
- 19 - I'm feeling kind of ugly ..
- 20 - I'm feeling kind of ..
- 21 - it's like my body always ..
- 21 - I'm feeling not the best ..
- 22 - watermelon sugar
- 23 - tonight I'm feeling ..
- 24 - So tonight I had a couple ..
- 25 - I neglected to mention ..
- 26 - sometimes I just don't ..
- 27 - It's late because I spent ..
- 28 - I'd rather sleep but ..
- 29 - I got drunk tonight. Am ..
- 29 - I'm gearing to head off ..
- 30 - I wrote earlier so this ..
- December 2019
- 01 - workwork
- 02 - rather annoyed with myself ..
- 03 - Yesterday's troubles are ..
- 04 - I'm sort of embarrassed of ..
- 05 - I forgot how playing piano ..
- 06 - So good news, I guess, on ..
- 07 - So I keep telling myself I ..
- 08 - After last night I was ..
- 09 - Tonight there's something ..
- 10 - how did I get through ..
- 11 - This emotional work is ..
- 12 - in regards to where I left ..
- 12 - I'm writing here just to ..
- 13 - ugh
- 14 - so I must be dismissive ..
- 15 - Strange how reading the ..
- 16 - Today I've been tending to ..
- 17 - It's late in the evening, ..
- 17 - Jesus help me
- 19 - help
- 20 - well
- 21 - whellp
- 23 - it's late, again. I ..
2020
- January 2020
- 02 - I've been taking a break ..
- 05 - It's going on too long now ..
- 08 - Attention today feels ..
- 10 - tomorrow I bartend again. ..
- 11 - I made it through today ..
- 12 - Work today, again, was ..
- 13 - I'm wearing myself down
- 15 - Second day of school and ..
- 15 - another entry
- 17 - confession
- 18 - I got so many feelings I ..
- 20 - It's strange how I can be ..
- 21 - ugh
- 22 - this is where I'm at. ..
- 23 - yeet
- 24 - So I'm sitting in my room ..
- 24 - so,
- 24 - I would be writing in my ..
- 25 - I'm feeling I'm in an ..
- 29 - codependancy
- 29 - ruined
- 30 - well fuck
- 30 - So I'm sitting here, ..
- 31 - about 'being a better ..
- February 2020
- 01 - a case of the downs
- 04 - I feel like I should start ..
- 04 - I probably need to cry. ..
- 05 - just got back from class. ..
- 07 - Tonight, after reading for ..
- 08 - miss Americana
- 09 - maybe finally I'm drunk ..
- 10 - I'm needing to blow off ..
- 11 - I suppose I should be ..
- 12 - man I'm spiraling ..
- 12 - man I thought I was done ..
- 12 - o'm feeling alittle ..
- 14 - I know from experience now ..
- 15 - really just feel like ..
- 18 - the pressure in my head ..
- 19 - I'm feeling better tonight ..
- 21 - not really in the mood to ..
- 21 - today feels like a slow ..
- 23 - I chose to go out last ..
- 23 - been doing a little more of ..
- 24 - assholes: i.e. me, ..
- 25 - probably jumping the gun ..
- 25 - yo ..likelike
- 26 - cramming
- 26 - another rough day. My only ..
- 27 - I'm sitting on what I said ..
- 27 - do the work
- 27 - here I am, again, asking ..
- 28 - So as I'm still trying to ..
- 29 - it's like here I am again ..
- March 2020
- 01 - I'm at Starbucks today ..
- 01 - it keeps occurring to me ..
- 02 - still haven't accomplished ..
- 03 - probably on here too much ..
- 03 - really just trying to get ..
- 05 - Kinda feeling hella self ..
- 07 - I'm showing up here ..
- 08 - fuckin pergatory
- 11 - only when I'm kinda drunk ..
- 11 - a lot of me just doesn't ..
- 11 - I feel disgusting ..
- 12 - damn these are lonely times ..
- 17 - I've been distancing ..
- 18 - I've needed this break ..
- 20 - honestly kinda angry right ..
- 22 - I'm feeling miserable ..
- 23 - I would just say I'm ..
- 26 - first day of the new job ..
- 27 - I feel like I could be ..
- 29 - I watched a video about ..
- 31 - let me tell you, I am the ..
- April 2020
- 02 - I'm getting down to ..
- 03 - greatful
- 05 - an all nighter
- 06 - after being up practically ..
- 07 - I struggled, today, to find ..
- 07 - If healing this sickness is ..
- 08 - stressin
- 09 - I wish I didn't have to ..
- 09 - yikes
- 12 - I'm still processing where ..
- 13 - It's hard for me to sit ..
- 14 - I loved today. I didn't do ..
- 15 - Made a new buddy today. ..
- 16 - all the tears still left to ..
- 17 - Lately the days fade by and ..
- 18 - I can't
- 19 - I got a lot to be grateful ..
- 20 - I'm feeling exhausted ..
- 20 - I remember almost every ..
- 21 - The amount of time I spend ..
- 23 - I don't know how to make ..
- 26 - 4/26
- 28 - sarah
- 29 - once again, I'm here ..
- 30 - I waste so much time
- May 2020
- 06 - running on all cylinders, ..
- 07 - well, I'm defiantly in a ..
- 09 - I passed my class! Somehow. ..
- 10 - honestly
- 11 - I'm in a better mood than ..
- 12 - self compassion comes as a ..
- 13 - don't really know what to ..
- 16 - I realize pessimism is sort ..
- 18 - I feel like barfing. Its ..
- 19 - sometimes I feel very aware ..
- June 2020
- 06 - Haven't been on here in a ..
- 08 - I don' really want to go ..
- 13 - I shouldn't be writing on ..
- 16 - homework
- 19 - scattered
- 23 - I could probably spend my ..
- 25 - I'm trying to write my ..
- July 2020
- 11 - a recap
- 14 - it's really hard for me to ..
- 19 - ayeeeee not well
- 24 - the date Monday has sent me ..
- 25 - this week has been a ..
- 26 - frUSterated
- 27 - oy.another day in ..
- 30 - actually not 100% terrible
- August 2020
- 03 - last night was date 3 with ..
- 18 - still going well
- November 2020
- 10 - I thought I was done ..
- 23 - I have so much in me to ..
- 25 - a nightmare, revisited
2021
- January 2021
- 03 - I haven't written here in ..
- 03 - I haven't written here in ..
- 06 - [this is] [i'm] not okay
- 06 - [this is] [i'm] not okay
- 12 - I'm feeling just as lost ..
- 13 - self/ish/less
- 25 - work again
- 27 - Hi, ..
- February 2021
- 01 - I am ridiculous.The ..
- 22 - I don't want to write but ..
- 24 - it still doesn't make ..
- March 2021
- 01 - If I'm being honest with ..
- 01 - I should probably get going ..
- 01 - I went out and got the next ..
- 02 - Back here again! This ..
- 03 - another day
- 05 - okay. I am ..ready.Afte
- 06 - So here I am ..
- 08 - I THOUGHT i could get away ..
- 08 - So, i just got done writing ..
- 08 - So, i just got done writing ..
- 10 - fatigue, headache, anxiety
- 10 - fatigue, headache, anxiety
- 15 - this diary is so wrong. A ..
- 16 - I had the final interview ..
- 18 - I Do Not want to do this.
- 20 - Well. well. ..
- 25 - I've built up this wall, ..
- 31 - now seems like a reasonable ..
- April 2021
- 06 - As the start date for my ..
- 09 - I came here to wipe the ..
- 11 - I guess now is a good time ..
- 29 - I feel like shit kinda. ..
- May 2021
- 10 - Its making more sense now
- 11 - after last night's entry ..
- 23 - I feel ill. mostly angry. ..
- 24 - it's just so hard to keep ..
- 25 - confused
- June 2021
- 05 - it's been a week since ..
- July 2021
- 11 - I can feel a lump in my ..
- 21 - so. nick proposed. and here ..
- 24 - I feel like I should touch ..
- August 2021
- 24 - HELP
- September 2021
- 01 - I would rather be in a ..
- 27 - I don't often find time to ..
- October 2021
- 23 - I have very little desire ..
- November 2021
- 07 - I feel bad writing alone ..
- 10 - a lifestyle of running from ..
- 10 - i want to say that there's ..
- 15 - this morning I have to ..
- December 2021
- 16 - I don't know where to ..
2022
- January 2022
- 20 - I meant to write earlier ..
- 20 - uncertainties turning over
- 24 - Now that i have properly ..
- 26 - Barely holding together ..
- 31 - damn. this is ..
- February 2022
- 09 - I really am in the mood to ..
- April 2022
- 07 - Well, ..
- June 2022
- 19 - I dont feel like I belong ..
- July 2022
- 07 - an inventory of where i'm at
- August 2022
- 19 - anything I write to staRt ..
- 30 - Therapy. ?
- November 2022
- 08 - I guess the thing is in all ..
- 30 - I feel drained and empty in ..
- 30 - I feel drained and empty in ..
2023
- January 2023
- 08 - I wanted to posit a post ..
- June 2023
- 01 - hello again
- November 2023
- 12 - Anytime I sit to write my ..
- 23 - I don't think this will ..
- 25 - I'm hoping writing in here ..
- 30 - purpose & focus?
- December 2023
- 08 - Dark cloud
- 20 - On growing old
- 22 - I don't know that I am ..
2024
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cynicism isn't cool so don't judge me. earnestness would be appreciated. disregard is even more casually welcome.